I have been scrapbooking since I was 13 years old. I love it. I love having a record of my life. But you know what I hate? It illustrates everything that I'm missing out on with Cora. I'll never get to see her play in the snow, or dress up stuffed animals, or read to her siblings. I'll never get holiday celebrations, or first days of school, or prom or graduation or wedding.
I was robbed of all of that. And while I LOVE everything I'm experiencing with my living children, and recording our memories, I hate that I only ever add to Cora's book on her birthday or in October for the Walk to Remember. And she's never in those pictures.
So while I love to scrapbook...sometimes I hate it too.
It's funny how our baby's become part of everything we do now, and sometimes their absence is all we have to remember them. xo
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