It's interesting how that grief has affected me. I'm not the type that views animals as children, but they ARE members of the family, and they DO have a way of grabbing your heart. And it hurts when they have to go.
Missing Mesh (his name was Gilgamesh) has sort of had a domino affect and made me miss my other dog, Princess, who died in 2003 (she thought I was her puppy. She and I had a really close bond), and now I'm really missing Cora. I'm learning as I go through this that there are many different circumstances for grief, and many different expressions for grief, but in the end it's the same. It always hurts.
So rest in peace, Gilgamesh Ruff Hill. You will be very missed.
I am so sorry about Mesh. It is really hard and they are a part of the family. Of course it would make you think of your Cora.
ReplyDeleteI am someone who was always deeply affected by the loss of an animal family member. so much, that I went to school to become a Licensed Veterinary Nurse.
I was really good at what I did, I was a natural and quick and efficient and extremely healing towards these innocent animals. Now that my son has died, I can not work with animals anymore.
I can not tolerate the suffering and the pain and the sadness anymore.
Because like our babies, they are innocents too. and it brings up so much.
This has been a really hard for me. I thought that my life calling was to serve and heal animals but now my empathy quota is way past full and I can not even look at a hurting animal without my soul feeling like its going to break.
I really hope that with time, I will be able to go back to my career that I loved so much.
This loss has left me spun. I lost my son, my career, some friends, myself and what my life was.
Every single life is important and meaningful. They all make a difference.
I'm thinking about you and your Mesh. Sending you lots of love.