The holiday season is hard. It starts with Halloween. I found myself having imaginary conversations with Cora. It started with talking to Erin about what she wanted to dress as (Rapunzel) and wondering what Cora would want to be. She had red hair, would she have wanted to be Ariel? Or would Ariel have been old news?
"But Mom, I want to be Rapunzel!"
"But Rapunzel has blonde hair, and so does Erin."
"So I always have to be Ariel because I have red hair?"
It has continued on with conversations with Erin about what she is grateful for, and what we should take to Grandma and Grandpa's house, and then what she wants for Christmas.
I hate that these conversations have to be imaginary. It hurts that I didn't get to have family traditions and experiences with her.