I don't know why first birthdays are so hard. This is the 4th time I've done a first birthday, the 3rd with a living child. We did cupcakes & presents with friends today for Allison. Her birthday isn't actually until Monday, but today worked best. Anyway, I was totally in the moment while IN the moment. But for the rest of today, looking at the pictures, part of my heart breaks over again.
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