If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I wish that I had a picture of my positive test with Cora. Or at least remembered the date. I wish I'd been able to enjoy my pregnancy with her, instead of having my most powerful memory being one of being convinced I was actually going to die from being so sick. I wish I'd known about NILMDTS, or at least thought of having the nurse take a picture of the 3 of us together. I wish I'd been able to have my family in the room to hold her. I wish we'd been able to have a funeral. I wish we'd been able to bury her, so that she could have a headstone to tell the world that she was here beyond what I'm able to do. I wish I'd been able to see her eyes, and hear her cry, see her smile, hear her laugh. I wish she were here.