Dear Cora

I pulled out my journal today.  I'm not really all that good about keeping a journal but I was fairly regular while pregnant with you.  When I remember back on my pregnancy, I remember being miserable.  I remember wanting so much for my pregnancy to just be over and I have always felt guilty about not appreciating having you while you were here.

But reading through my journal entries helped pacify a lot of that guilt.  I was so excited for you.  I was so awed and honored to be your mother.  I loved you before I even conceived you, and I still do.

I still do so much. 

And I miss you more than anything.

I hope you knew that while you were here.  I hope you felt my love for you in the sound of my beating heart.   I hope you know how much I love you still.

Forever and always,

Mommy