I'm getting tired of people congratulating me on baby #3. I have baby #3. His name is Patrick, and he's currently trying to climb on my back. I adore him.
Erin (who is telling me she's hungry and not understanding when I'm telling her it has to cook) is baby #2.
Cora was, is, and always will be my first baby. Just because I didn't get to take her home, and or take all the pictures of her I have of her siblings, or having her family pictures, doesn't mean she's not my child.
In ways, she's more my child that Skittles is right now.
But I can't forget her. I have to acknowledge her. She's my firstborn, always and forever.
And I miss her so much.